Anxiety

I had no other ideas when it comes to the title of this post so I decided that it would be best to keep it simple. I've got a mild anxiety, which sometimes grows to the size of a block of flats. Especially when it comes to any social interactions. Weirdly enough it usually happens when I have to message someone online.. I know it's weird but approaching somebody in person in some social situations like a party or whatever is just way easier for me. Because you can't screenshot what I say to you in person, you can repeat that to your friends but with no actual proof and sometimes I say too much. Although I come as someone who doesn't give a shit in general, duuuuudes, I care about every smallest thing ever. Especially when it comes to stuff people tell me. You'll say one thing and I'll pick it apart and think about it for months because maybe I misunderstood you and it lead me to false interpretation therefore I feel as if I had to find multiple ways of interpreting what you've said. And in this proces everything seems to be super important to me - when you said it, your tone and if you were drunk or not. Every single shit like that, every tiniest detail is so so so so so important and then after realising that actually you may hate me and by the time I finisz thinking about that I'll be pretty sure you do I'm going to spend a few days in bed swimming in the pool of anxiety I made for my self by overthinking.
Lately I haven't had a day without thinkinng about stuff and then thinking about thinking too much. Because first I want to get to the core of "what the fuck do you mean" and then I start to Wonder if there's a point in what I'm doing. No there's no point, just to get that out of the way, but I do it anyways. Even writing this post is fucking pointless because even if I publish it I'll probably delete it later since it's just an announcement saying "Look at me being a fucking mess". But if you've been here (on my blog) for a while, you know that I'm nothing else but a huge mess.
Anxiety gets worse when you suffer from mood swings as well. Just so you know. You wake up feeling fine and then someone says "hi" and you don't know if it's because you just bumped into each other or because the person just wanted to say hi and there's nothing else in it. Ugh. Or you just get mad because it's morning and you didn't drink your coffee and somebody starts talking to you, like what the actual fuck man? Are you a psycho? Don't talk to me before I drink my coffee, alright?
Thanks anxiety for ruining and ruling my life.

News story - Goldilocks as girl on drugs.

As we do more and more fun stuff during our classes I decided to post some of my works on the blog. Here comes the news story based on the fairytale about Goldilocks and the Three Bears. Hope you'll enjoy this little news twist!

Girl on drugs broke into a house

                Young girl from Berlin, Germany, broke into the house of her neighbors few nights ago. On 20^th of October during Bruners’ absence she broke the doors to get into the house. The family lives near local forest so the girl managed to escape unnoticed by their neighbors quickly hiding in the woods when the family came back.

                After the investigation the police assumed that nothing was stolen from the Bruners’ house, but multiple things are destroyed. “She broke most of the plates and cups. Managed to destroy a very old, antique chair which was worth around $1820.” Said the police officer investigating the matter. “The girl also broke one bed, shower, sink, four windows and the main doors. The whole loss is estimated to be around $25000.”

Probably the girl was after high dose of psychedelic drugs as when she saw Bruners’ coming to the bedroom she grabbed a mop and tried to hit the Bart Bruner. “I did not know what was going on. She jumped out of the bed screaming something about bears, wild forest creatures and that she doesn’t want to die.” Said Bart Bruner during one of the police interviews.

                The girl moved into small flat nearby Bruners’ together with her boyfriend. They have been living on the Victoria StraBe for two weeks and since then the police had been at their place for over ten times as the neighbors were complaining about the noise and rude behavior. A week ago before breaking into Bruners’ house local police found five grams of cocaine, two grams of weed and eleven pills of MDMA at the place where the girl, introducing herself as Goldilocks, lives.

                Thanks to the CTV cameras and support of the local neighbors the police managed to catch Goldilocks and now they are still looking for her boyfriend who managed to escape. Local hospital did test if she was on drugs during the misfortunate event. That night she in her blood was high dose of LSD, heroin and probably also other psychedelics, but the sample of her blood is still being tested. The girl is in the arrest waiting for a trial.